Thanks for the encouraging words from last time. I have already made new friends. I'm still trying to get past the icky feelings of being dumped, but that will fade in time.
One of the jerks dropped the class, so that helps. I still have to see the other one, but I have resigned myself to ignoring him completely. Part of me wants so badly to put him on the spot and say "WTF?" but I won't do it. It's not worth it. He has been ignoring me, not even looking at me. He has also been coming to class without fail, and staying for the duration, which is annoying. Before all this, he barely stayed more than an hour each time. It's a three hour class.
I picked up a screw in one of my tires. The bright side is, it was a tire I kind of needed to replace anyway. I am grasping at straws here, trying to be positive.
However, I have weird sized tires, and no one carries them. It could take a week for the tire to arrive. Right at the beginning of Spring Break. Excellent. I already canceled a trip to San Diego to avoid driving on the freeway with my patched tire. It doesn't help that I'm stir crazy and bursting with the need for adventure.
There are all kinds of picky little threads in my life tapestry right now. Things that are seemingly unrelated, but when I stand back and look at them all, I can see connections.
For instance, here is my first finished project for that Illustration class. On the surface, it is kind of funny, considering recent events, but I am trying to draw strength from it's deeper meanings, and use it as an epitaph for a bum friendship.
The Fool is the spirit in search of experience. She represents the mystical cleverness, bereft of reason within us all, the childlike ability to tune in to the inner workings of the world.
The Fool is both the beginning and the end, neither or otherwise, Liminal.
The liminal state is characterized by ambiguity, openness and indeterminacy. One's sense of identity disolves to some extent, bringing about disorientation. Liminality is a period of transition where normal limits to thought, self understanding and behaviour are relaxed. A situation which can lead to new perspectives.
The Fool always represents the querent in Tarot readings. A symbol of new beginnings and starting back at Zero in life, be it with career, romance, or adventure. She represents change, renewal and new beginnings.
The Sun behind her represents the divine nature of the fool's wisdom and exuberance.
The flower shows her appreciation of beauty.
The Cat symbolizes animal desires, and the call of the real world nipping at her heels. It can also refer to devotion and faithfulness, feralness, and primordiality.
The Laurel Wreath signifies a triumphant return from a previous adventure.
The Eagle is a symbol born by men of action, occupied by high and weighty affairs. It was given to those of lofty spirit, ingenuity, speed in comprehension, and discrimination in matters of ambiguity. The wings represent protection, and the gripping talons symbolize ruin to evildoers. The eagle is held to represent a noble nature from it's strength and aristocratic appearance.
The fool is unconcerned that she is stepping into a void.
The Staff that holds her bindle represents wisdom and renunciation.
The bindle signifies that she has everything she needs with her.